“You are going to feel like hell if you never write the stuff that is tugging on the sleeves of your heart — your stories, visions, memories, visions and songs. Your truth, your version of things, your own voice. That is really all you have to offer us. And that’s also why you were born.”
Anne Lamott
“You are going to feel like hell if you never write the stuff that is tugging on the sleeves of your heart — your stories, visions, memories, visions and songs. Your truth, your version of things, your own voice. That is really all you have to offer us. And that’s also why you were born.”
Anne Lamott
“Suddenly the Judge shall come and the deeds of each shall be revealed.”
Eastern Orthodox morning prayer
The following is a post by Jason Zharaiades. I was struck by his subject on a couple of levels. My intuitive response to the title was, here’s another guy ranting about the Coronavirus being God’s judgement on this evil world. That response in itself gives me pause to assess my thinking on God’s judgement. Secondly, he opened a completely different insight into the Eastern Orthodox morning prayer “Suddenly the Judge shall come and the deeds of each shall be revealed.” In deed, Coronavirus is a judge and, as Jason tells us, it’s revealing truth that we would otherwise conceal. For me, despite my honest assertion of peace in the midst of this crisis, the judge has revealed my flawed and disingenuous heart. (Ann is my witness, and my victim) I suspect gleeful scenes on facebook are not quite the family realities some want to portray. I am coming to realize the the deep spiritual challenge these days present. There has been much said about great spiritual opportunities, i.e. family interactions, virtual connections, teaching and discipling., on-line worship, to name a few. But I’m thinking our coronavirus experience, ironically, may prove to be more Lenten than Easter.
“Suddenly the Judge shall come and the deeds of each shall be revealed.”
This is a line from the morning prayers I say. When I first became an Eastern Orthodox Christian, I used to emotionally cringe at this line. It played into my old juridical perspective of God, depicting God as pounding his gavel and declaring me guilty. Or worse, it played on some of my deeper distortions of God as a deity hiding around the corner, waiting for me to do something bad so he could jump out and catch me red-handed.
But that isn’t the God revealed in Jesus. He’s a good, loving, generous Father who desires us to enter the true human life and vocation as his image-bearers, ambassadors, and priests.
So now, I see this line more therapeutically. A judge determines what is real and true. Like a doctor touching an area on our body in order to diagnose, the pain that we experience reveals disease or disorder that needs to be addressed and healed.
So it’s for our goodness and health that the Judge comes and reveals our deeds. It reveals what is real. And that honest revelation is always a gift, and never a curse.
But how does the Judge come and reveal? I find in my life it’s through pressure and suffering. When circumstances become stressful, that’s when the Judge reveals, when the Doctor diagnoses. As part of the process, the crap that I’m fairly good at burying during normal times is exposed. Anger, anxiety, fear, impatience, gossip, pride, self-centeredness, control, self-preservation, and so much more are flushed into the open.
And that’s when I’m reminded and invited again to trust in and follow my Shepherd. In him I lack nothing. In him I am safe. In him I am sustained. In him the fractured and frenzied pieces of my life are being reintegrated and restored.
I write this because yesterday morning as I prayed that line, I choked when I realized how the past couple of weeks have brought the Judge so powerfully. I can’t remember a time when I’ve felt so overwhelmed, to the point I feel physically ill and emotionally strung out. And what’s being exposed isn’t good. It feels like all the spiritual formation over the past several years has evaporated.
I’m not writing this to invoke pity. Rather, it’s a reminder that true and genuine honesty is a gift, not a curse. If I let God do his work, then what I’m experiencing is ultimately for my good. Suddenly the Judge comes and it is a good thing, even though it hurts so much.
The COVID-19 pandemic has afforded me opportunity to peruse old files. I came across a letter I wrote to our Bible Study group in Louisville before we moved to Wilmore. Its message is a timely reminder.
As you probably know, I listen to a lot of sermons and lectures. I’m concerned that I may be a “cognitive behaviorist”. I ran across that term in a book that I just finished. I posted a comment on my blog about it. Here is what I posted:
Occasionally, I look at the mirror and get a glimpse of what I really look like and it isn’t always a pleasant experience. I would prefer to see myself in my mind’s eye. This morning as I was reading Scot McKnight’s “A Community Called Atonement”. As he addressed impediments to the atoning role scripture plays in the life of the church, I had a “glimpse in the mirror” experience. The subject was “cognitive behaviorist”.
“… cognitive behaviorists teach that if we get things right in our mind we will behave accordingly. With respect to spiritual formation … the theory goes like this: the more Bible we learn, the better Christian we should be; the more theology we grasp, the better we will live. … But we need to make this clear: knowing more Bible doesn’t necessarily make me a better Christian. I have hung around enough nasty Bible scholars and enough mean-spirited pastors to know that knowing the Bible does not inevitably create a better Christian. And I’ve known plenty of loving Christians who don’t know the difference Matthew and John, let alone the differences between Kings and Chronicles”
The cognitive behaviorist approach denies a biblical theory of the Eikon [that humans are created in the image of God] We are made as Eikons, we cracked the Eikon (through our will), and the resolution of the problem of cracked Eikons is not simply through the mind. It is through the will, the heart, the mind and the soul – and the body, too. No matter how much Bible we know, we will not be changed until we give ourselves over to what Augustine called “faith seeking understanding”. The way of Jesus is personal, and it is relational, and it is through the door of loving God and loving others. The mind is a dimension of our love of God (heart, soul, mind, and strength), but it is not the only or even the first door to open.
I share that with you because I may have communicated in some way that knowing the Bible is all we need to be Christ followers. Knowing the Bible is important, but as stated above, it is not he only thing. Personally, I am trying to develop other dimensions of my relationship with Christ, my will, heart, soul, and body. Spiritual formation is not just about knowing the Bible. I would like to discuss this further when we get together.
I am involved in constant warfare. There are multiple battle fronts which require my attention. To mention a few: self-control, humility, kindness, patience, understanding, loving others, for a start. My conflict is internal. Of course, there are serious existential threats but if I lose the internal war they will not matter. In fact, prevailing in my internal conflicts will equip me to withstand external threats.
One particular internal battle is bias, the subject of this post. I can say with confidence , everyone is biased. I would hope we all are biased in favor of love, mercy, and goodness, for instance. But, alas that’s not the case.
Bias is disproportionate weight in favor of or against an idea or thing, usually in a way that is closed-minded, prejudicial, or unfair.
Wikipedia
The problem with my biases arise when it they are not centered in virtue but are a product of my self-conceived rightness. The battle against bias begins with self-examination. The idea that I might be wrong is reprehensible and makes self-examination difficult, if not impossible. I should never underestimate my desire to protect my rightness, to do so is stupid. (The Bible says so: Stupid people always think they are right. They never have to justify their actions. They never have to justify their choices because they think they’re right. If you are always right you’re not always right, you’re always stupid. Proverbs 12:15 (GNT))
“So what brought this on?” you might ask. Most immediately, in reading a post from AllSides, a site which attempts to identify media bias, I was struck by my own biases as I had listened to and read about the particular incident. That post is included below. Secondly, I continue to see and experience the impact of bias in the media, myself and personal interactions. In our culture, bias is more infectious than COVID-19 and may present a greater threat in the long run. I am optimistic about an eventual vaccine for COVID-19 but there will be no vaccine for for bias.
Despite the factI am infected with bias and not an authority on its treatment, I will share my personal treatment plan:
Create a bias for truth. Actions and resources for achieving that goal include:
Connect more with God’s word and deepen faith in HIM.
Eliminate hype and spin in my conversations and writing.
Engage in intentional and regular self-examination.
Seek and heed counsel from trusted others.
Perhaps as you read the post below you will see or hear your own biases as I did. My hope is that you will think about your own biases and commit to developing a bias for truth.
You may not recall I wrote last year about my “Say What” app, the ultimate answer to social media bias. If not, you can read it HERE. Sadly, I failed to secure necessary funding for its development and launch. If any of you investors out there are interested, after reading this post, let me know.
The COVID-19 coronavirus has left many Americans housebound with little to do except keep their eyes on the news, anxious for any sign that the pandemic may be slowing. The tidal wave of reporting on the virus and President Trump’s response is a reminder to remain diligent about spotting media bias. A particularly potent showing of media bias came Saturday, following a White House press conference in which an NBC reporter asked Trump to address Americans “who are scared.”“What do you say to Americans who are scared, though?” asked Peter Alexander, NBC White House Correspondent.“I say you are a terrible reporter,” Trump responded in part.If you read only headlines and tweets, you may think that was the end of the exchange. However, the full clip shows Trump continuing, scolding the media for fear-mongering through sensationalism, a type of media bias:“I say you are a terrible reporter. That’s what I say. I think it’s a very nasty question. And I think it’s a very bad signal that you’re putting out to the American people. The American people are looking for answers, and they’re looking for hope. And you’re doing sensationalism, and the same with NBC and Con-cast — I don’t call it Comcast — I call it Con-cast, for whom you work — let me just say something — that’s really bad reporting and you ought to get back to reporting instead of sensationalism.” Ironically, the coverage of the exchange itself showed plenty of sensationalism bias: Trump “rages,” “melts down,” “blows up,” “throws tantrum,” making for a “scary moment” — these word choices paint a clear picture, a picture that a simple “Trump said” would not accomplish. As I noted previously on this blog, media outlets on the left and right often selectively choose content in order to paint a particular picture. By focusing only on Trump’s first sentence, we get a picture of a president appearing dismissive of Americans’ concerns. I can think of a few headlines describing this exchange that would have painted a less volatile picture:“Trump criticizes media for stoking fear among Americans”“Asked to address scared Americans, Trump points finger at media sensationalism”“Trump calls reporter “terrible,” accuses press of sensationalism”“Trump says American people want answers, hope”“Trump tells reporter to “get back to reporting instead of sensationalism””“Trump says media sensationalism is stoking fear among Americans”The verbs “says,” “tells,” and “calls” conjure very different mental images than “blows up” or “rages.” This display of media bias falls under many categories: sensationalism, spin, slant. AllSides defines sensationalism as a type of media bias in which information is presented in a way that gives a shock or makes a deep impression. Language is often dramatic, yet vague. “Melts down” is both unclear and unspecific. Spin is a similar type of media bias. It clouds a reader’s view, preventing them from getting a precise take on what happened. Trump “throws tantrum” begs many questions — what exactly did he say? Was he shouting? Did he stomp on the floor? Throw something? Employing spin to cloud the reader’s view may lead them to imagine a number of unfavorable scenarios. In the midst of a national crisis, it goes without saying that we’d want our leaders to remain calm and poised under pressure — not “throwing a tantrum” or “melting down.” It depends on your perspective as to whether or not it is accurate to say Trump was blowing up, in a rage, melting down, throwing a tantrum. You may agree without a shadow of a doubt that he was. Or perhaps editors only used the exaggerated language to get clicks, regardless of the reporter’s true feelings. Coverage could have focused on the question of whether or not the media has been sensationalizing, rather than the exchange.Americans should remain diligent and remember there is no such thing as unbiased news; journalists are often inserting their own perspective into their reporting. In my view, this time they proved Trump’s point.Julie Mastrine is the Director of Marketing at AllSides. She has a Lean Right bias. This piece was reviewed by John Gable, AllSides President and co-founder (Lean Right bias), Henry A. Brechter, AllSides’ Managing Editor (Center bias), and Samantha Shireman, Information Architect (Lean Left bias).
A whole lot of us go through life assuming that we are basically right , basically all the time, about basically everything : about our political and intellectual convictions , our religious and moral beliefs , our assessment of other people , our memories , our grasp of facts . As absurd as it sounds when we stop to think about it , our steady state seems to be one of unconsciously assuming that we are very close to omniscient.
These times are unprecedented (duh). Not only for the world and our nation, but for every home. Social media is akin to a daily binge, intoxicating and irresistible but the hangover is a bummer. There is no absence of information about COVID-19 (another duh). I continue to be amazed at the wide range of opinions on COVID-19… what it is… how great a threat it is.
Not to be deterred by all the information widely available, I want to share some insight on the nature of coronavirus. I had not heard this particular information before and found it helpful in understanding why coronavirus is so different and more dangerous . I always try to be aware of my biases and inclination to hear what fits them. Since the source is someone I have trust in but is not a scientist or medical authority, I asked my scientist to review it and give his opinion. I hope you will find it helpful also.
“Feeling confused as to why Coronavirus is a bigger deal than Seasonal flu?
Here it is in a nutshell. I hope this helps. Feel free to share this to others who don’t understand… It has to do with RNA sequencing…. I.e. genetics. Seasonal flu is an “all human virus”. The DNA/RNA chains that make up the virus are recognized by the human immune system. This means that your body has some immunity to it before it comes around each year… you get immunity two ways…through exposure to a virus, or by getting a flu shot. Novel viruses, come from animals…. the WHO tracks novel viruses in animals, (sometimes for years watching for mutations). Usually these viruses only transfer from animal to animal (pigs in the case of H1N1) (birds in the case of the Spanish flu). But once, one of these animal viruses mutates, and starts to transfer from animals to humans… then it’s a problem, Why? Because we have no natural or acquired immunity.. the RNA sequencing of the genes inside the virus isn’t human, and the human immune system doesn’t recognize it so, we can’t fight it off.
Now…. sometimes, the mutation only allows transfer from animal to human, for years it’s only transmission is from an infected animal to a human before it finally mutates so that it can now transfer human to human… once that happens..we have a new contagion phase. And depending on the fashion of this new mutation, thats what decides how contagious, or how deadly it’s gonna be.. H1N1 was deadly….but it did not mutate in a way that was as deadly as the Spanish flu. It’s RNA was slower to mutate and it attacked its host differently, too. Fast forward. Now, here comes this Coronavirus… it existed in animals only, for nobody knows how long…but one day, at an animal market, in Wuhan China, in December 2019, it mutated and made the jump from animal to people. At first, only animals could give it to a person… But here is the scary part…. in just TWO WEEKS it mutated again and gained the ability to jump from human to human. Scientists call this quick ability, “slippery” This Coronavirus, not being in any form a “human” virus (whereas we would all have some natural or acquired immunity). Took off like a rocket. And this was because, Humans have no known immunity…doctors have no known medicines for it. And it just so happens that this particular mutated animal virus, changed itself in such a way the way that it causes great damage to human lungs.. That’s why Coronavirus is different from seasonal flu, or H1N1 or any other type of influenza…. this one is slippery AF. And it’s a lung eater…And, it’s already mutated AGAIN, so that we now have two strains to deal with, strain s, and strain L….which makes it twice as hard to develop a vaccine. We really have no tools in our shed, with this.
History has shown that fast and immediate closings of public places has helped in the past pandemics. Philadelphia and Baltimore were reluctant to close events in 1918 and they were the hardest hit in the US during the Spanish Flu. Factoid: Henry VIII stayed in his room and allowed no one near him, till the Black Plague passed…(honestly…I understand him so much better now). Just like us, he had no tools in his shed, except social isolation… And let me end by saying….right now it’s hitting older folks harder… but this genome is so slippery…if it mutates again (and it will). Who is to say, what it will do next. Be smart folks… acting like you’re unafraid is so not sexy right now. #flattenthecurve. Stay home folks… and share this to those that just are not catching on.”
This is my scientist’s comments: Most of the article is accurate and helpful. I have no idea why he described the virus as a “lung-eater.” That creates a false image of its effects. The most severe cases produce an excessive immune reaction and patients basically drown from over-production of lung fluids. Also, I haven’t heard anyone else refer to “two strains” of the virus. Even if it’s accurate, it’s probably a distraction to start focusing on how many strains there are. The same avoidance methods still apply.
On another note, I have been a bit surprised at the lackluster response to the survey in my last post. Come ON! loosen up and have some fun? It’s not too late. I will share whatever results I get in a few days.
I suspect that you, like me, have a lot of time on your hands. Life is dominated by Coronavirus. It may very well exceeded 9-11 in its overall impact. I am curious about your thoughts on the COVID-19 crisis. Later in the post there is a survey you can submit. The responses are anonymous and I will share the results with all of you.
Ann and I are fairing well. We are sheltering in place, which pretty much means self-quarantined. Limiting personal contact to family members and maintaining 6′ distance. Ann is getting up to speed with on-line shopping. I expect we will be doing some carry-out meals. I rescheduled my Tuesday doctor’s appointment until July. It is interesting how we are adapting and finding ways to get things done differently.
I am trying to use this time to get in the shop and do some projects on my to-do-list. Yard work in on the list when the weathers breaks. Of course, I’m writing blog posts and some personal correspondence. There are several books on my Kindle to be read. Afternoon naps are mandatory, but that is not new. Coffee meetings have been moved to facetime and I’ve found that to be a good experience.
Although the days are filling up, there is opportunity for spiritual reflection and introspection given all the various facets of this crisis. I’ve got a lot to think about and hope to take advantage of these circumstances.
SOME RANDOM OBSERVATIONS
For most of our neighborhood sheltering in place is business as usual.
There seems to be more people than I expected that do not consider COVID-19 to be a big a deal.
A shelter in place order would have been a lot more fun 30 years ago.
My delayed new year’s resolution is not to check our retirement account until 2021.
It has been interesting to witness the consternation over cancelling church services. Good opportunity to reassess our theology.
Dr. Timothy Tennet wrote An eloquent theological reflection today, You can read it HERE.
I had a dream that the person who purchased 20 gallons of milk at Walmart March 10 got home and saw their expiration date was March 11, 2020.
I have been surprised at the peace I have felt these past weeks. Thank You Jesus.
I thought it would be fun to share our opinions about Covoid-19. Completely voluntary and anonymous. To participate, click on the link below.
I wonder if growing up in faith, and having a grown up view of God, is similar to the coming and going of Nanny McPhee: “When you need me, but do not want me then I must stay. But when you want me but no longer need me, I have to go.” Jim Gordon
